The art of being creative and proud.

I always say that creative people are sensitive people. I say this because I am creative, I like to design things and I am also very sensitive when it comes to my art and creations. 

I get pretty defensive when my art gets criticized. Because I think to myself... "Ok, you really do not know how long it took to do this" or "Alright why don't you try to do it and see if you can have a better result". I know this is a major flaw the Lord is working on, but for real this is how I was for as long as I can remember. For those I have lashed out at when all they were trying to do was help my art be better, I am sorry. 

I know I cannot be the only one who acts or feels this way. You know why, because being a creative and artistic person requires vulnerability. A person's art is literally an extension of who they are. It's their expression. It's their feelings. It's a projection of what is going on inside of them. Writers, bloggers, painters, dancers, photographers, graphic designers, fashion designers... all of them need to be vulnerable when showing their art to the public and for me, this was hard. Already, to publish my art, is a difficult task, and to have someone criticize or comment on it tore me up. It felt like an attack against me. But I now understand that it really was not. So this issue, as you can imagine blocked me from many blessings and kept me from my purpose for a very long time. It was essentially a pride issue. Someone say "hmmmmmmmmm"!!!

I was proud because I thought I was the best at what I did. No one could put a powerpoint together better than me. No one can edit this video like I do. I can design this poster with my eyes closed cause no one else has this skill. Well guysssss.... The Lord humbled me. With this attitude, my art was not reaching anyone. It was not growing, it was not where I wanted it to be. I realized I could not do life alone. That I needed people who had both a different and a similar mind than me. That was the only way I was going to grow. It's annoying because I have to expose myself, I have to unveil myself, I have to be vulnerable, but such is life. For me to carry on what the Lord wanted me to do and become, I had to let go! I am still working on this, trust me... It's not easy. I like to hang on to things and ideas and God is showing me that I must trust Him and let go and trust the people he is sending my way to help the vision and my ministry move forward. 

The fact that you are reading this blog means you are on my website looking at my hats! And let me tell you, I would not have launched this site if it were not for my dear friends who encouraged me and motivated me and gave me tips along the way. God even used an old acquaintance to get me off my bum and move on with this vision. I can't be bitter and annoyed every time someone says something about my art and my purpose. I need to stand tall, take the advice or the hate and build on it. 

I hope this helped you :)

With champion love, 

V.